The Waiting Game

As some of you know one of the reasons this blog has been silent for a few days is because of my brother.  My brother is currently in the hospital with a Subdural hematoma as well as a fractured skull.  We may never know what exactly caused his injuries, and that is one of the hardest things for us to live with.   My brother & I were always close growing up.  He was & is the typical older brother who loves to tease me to no end.  

 According to the neurologist there has not been any improvement in the amount of fluid
or however after two days the hemorrhage has stopped.   He is very restless & the nurses, doctors and rest of the family are just trying to keep him calm.   They had to induce a medically induced comma to help keep him calm.    The other issue happening is that he is having a very irregular heart rhythm. Keep in mind that this could be occurring do to the paid medicine he is on as well as because the heart is not sure if it should be pumping more blood to the brain or less.  Also, when they intubated him, my brother suffered a collapsed lung, that than needed to be re inflated. From what the nurses and doctors have said this is normal, but still needs to be monitored closely. 

It's been 1 week since my brother was put into the hospital. On Saturday the medical staff introduced my brother to a "sedation vacation"  He was able to last for 30 minutes with that on Saturday before his heart rate & blood pressure began to spike.  Then on Sunday he lasted for 60 minutes & was able to open his eyes on command but it only was for a brief second. Every day were told that he is taking baby steps in the right direction.  Its so hard watching him lay on a bed with the machines to help him breath.  I am starting to feel like I am being sucked down into this deep dark hole & there is nothing I can do to help my brother. 

It also doesn't help with the knowledge that this is a frontal lobe injury.  We won't know what type of a person my brother will be when he wakes up.  He may become a risk taker, he may have permanent memory loss, he may be more aggressive.  Only time will tell. 

Its because of this, that I have not been able to write my Mamavation Monday Post or keep up with the Facebook feed.   I feel so out of the loop that I can hardly focus.  But, here is how I have been doing.  I am still trying to make healthier food choices.  I try to take the steps at the hospital vs the elevator.  I also weighed myself today & found that I haven't loss anymore weight.   I'm trying to look at it like the 'glass is half full'  telling myself that I didn't gain weight either & no matter how I look at it I am still down 3#s from the start of the year.  Let me tell you that its not easy.

This week I am asking everyone who stops by to read this post that they pray for my brother.  

Thank you for reading.